I apparently created this blog back in 2013 and never published anything on it! Convenient though, because today as I came to create a blog, or rather an outlet, I didn’t have to do all the back work! Sure there are kinks that need worked out, but that will come in time. So, what am I doing here? Well, I am working to regain my sanity. To regain some “me” time. To create a place to do a brain dump every now and then. For years and years, I have used writing as my ability to just empty everything out of my brain and move forward. It seems that as soon as I get it down on paper my burden is lifted and my brain is free to think of other things. Lately, I have been stressed, overwhelmed, forgetful, and slightly irritable. After talking with Caleb, the answer to these issues could be many things, but I think it is a lack of “me” time.
I am a mom of three boys aged 7, 5 and 3. They keep me occupied from the time they wake up until the time they go to bed. (And sometimes even when they are in bed. My three-year old has decided he doesn’t like to sleep all night anymore. But, that’s a story for another day.) Three meals a day, a couple snacks thrown in, bathroom runs with the little guy, toys everywhere, Lego minefields on the floor, lots of laughs, hugs, love, and loudness. It is amazing. I love being a mom, I truly do. Not only do we have just regular life happening, but we also homeschool. That is truly amazing. To be able to see my sons learn and connect the dots and have the light bulbs of understanding come on while I can witness it is spectacular. With all those also comes the fact that I am with my kiddos 24/7. It’s worth it, and I don’t want it to seem like I am complaining, but sometimes I just need a breather. I need to be able to sit and hear nothing but silence! So, that is what I am doing with this blog. I don’t know how many times I will post, or what exactly I will post about, but it should be an interesting journey.
Tonight, my three year old, Hank, is in bed for the night. In the winter, the kids go to bed at 7pm. My other two guys, Donovan (7) and Brenden (5) are at a meeting with Caleb. So for the time being the house is quiet. I can think, reflect, listen to the rain falling outside, and just enjoy putting my thoughts out there.
I feel the need to write because it has been a marvelous outlet in previous years. I haven’t done it for quite some time, so honestly I don’t know exactly what this blog will look like, but I hope some might find encouragement to keep pressing on, or get a laugh from a story I may tell of the boys. Come along and share my journey, I am happy to have you along for the ride!